Wanting

So I've been thinking a lot about this life I'm trying to lead. I kept thinking about what my goals were, and what I wanted to be. I wanted to wake up every morning for the rest of my life and say to myself,"Self: You're a photographer" instead of what I've been saying for months,"Self: You're a hack."

Then it hit me.

What I want means very little if I don't know why.

Do I dream of having a photo shoot with famous stars? Sure. Do I dream that I can be so in demand that I actually need to hire an assistant and get a studio space? Hells Ya. But what I really want is something far more simple, but very elusive...

Simply put: I want to be able to spend time with my family whenever the hell I want. I never want to hear the words,"Daddy, why are you home?" EVER again. That's the best part about wanting a dream to come true: It's my dream, and that means it's malleable. If that means that I become a great photographer that gets just enough work to keep the family afloat so that I can be home when I need to be: so be it.

Working 9-5

Hey Everyone,

Some of you might know I dig hip-hop. Not the crap you hear on the radio, but REAL hip-hop. I'm by-no-means an expert on hip-hop, but I know what I like when I hear it.

This song hit me while listening to last.fm so I thought I'd share it. I'm sorry if they cuss more thank I do.... (publicly anyway...)

Enjoy

Blogging

Hi.

I'm having a hard time writing blogs. Let me rephrase that.... I'm having a hard time posting blogs. I've written a few in the past weeks, and I can't seem to post them. Not a technical inability, but more of a "man, I shouldn't say that" type of inability.

I keep writing my feelings and opinions on how I view the photography industry, particularly the box-photo-studios found where you buy your noodles and toilet paper. I keep telling myself that they're not my competition, but for some odd reason, they're getting business. Why? It's not like they really advertise... I think it might be that everyone knows that they're there. They're not very good, but they're there. How do I get the word out that I'm here and I can do better?

I made up my first ad to put up at local grocery stores where I live, work, and play. It didn't take long to design (kung fu college taught me that already), but I need to just print them out and drive places with ads and thumbtacks. I'm thinking about post cards to leave at high schools too.

Why am I telling you this? I dunno. Transparency maybe. I'm a photographer, not a business major. I'll have to just see what works in my area and trial and error it to death.

I hope I post this entry... I really want to get my work/word/existence out there.